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Loyal But Not Dumb

The journey of a healthy, secure human being entails peace and maturity!

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Many perceive the state as complacent and dumb! Don't get it twisted, this sanity will keep many alive. I have been experiencing anxiety attacks despite recently stepping out of my comfort zone. As a fearful-avoidant attachment type, I guard my personal space like a trained pit bull. I am detached from the world especially those in my inner circle. I haven't spoken to a lot of my close friends, and relatives in a long time. The nonchalance in my demeanor worries me a bit specifically that they don't check up on me either. Yes, we are going through a pandemic and uprisings amongst personal struggles. It's barely the time to have high expectations of human relationships. Still, aware of my dispositions I take into account that I need help.

I had quite an unexpected weekend of adventure with my sister and neighbors. I took my advice and put myself out there, mask and all. I tried to get out of my head and experience the moment. Back to the real world, there's a knot in my stomach and I'm suffering from headaches. I'm actually a decent human being. With growth and constant unpacking of the baggage, I'm empathetic, I try to avoid being neurotic and I seek the higher self. But when you are the only one on a personal journey of growth in your space and circles, some may take advantage of that. Others with narcissistic tendencies believe that you are feeding into their energy, hence 'ill-treating' you. I will light-heartedly say this, the reason that you are not in some ditch in a remote place is the fact that we are works in progress. Yabona!  And then smiles.

On the real though, assumptions make an ass of you. In the same paragraph maybe some of you need to check yourselves. Again as I heal, and work towards being a secure type, I do protect my space. That means social distancing my being from toxic individuals and triggers. There will be a time where flight isn't the best course of action. We will have to face every demon and deal with them. It might get ugly, but we only become victors after overcoming....not running. 

Hello team we are a work in progress. How has your journey been? I decided to share a few pearls of wisdom. These will help with gauging our progress. It helps to have measurable achievements, or changes. You know like how we react to triggers, how we are open to relationships and how we love ourselves. So let's talk about our healing process.

1.

You are in a
position to control the emotions that affect your reactions.

2. You are able to let people, or your partner about your triggers. Being able to communicate how you feel and the thoughts that go through your mind, prevents assumptions.

3. Self perception is more positive as you detach yourself from negative notions.

4. It's okay to not be okay, and perfection isn't a deal breaker.

5. People learn to respect the boundaries that you set.

6. Empathy is second nature to you.

7. Forgive and forget is your life mantra.

8. You know who you are.

So we are a peaceful kind, empathetic, open minded and patient. But let's remember that we are not door mats. We aren't accepting toxic behaviours from external forces to treat who are becoming as dumb. 

Here's to healing, growth and maturity!

 

P.S.: Always write your own love story!

Ciao!

Lady E

 

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