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As I step into the new year, a word or two...

I have been suffering from sleep deprivation for the past few days. My mind has been a minefield of the status quo. I have been trying to have the zen part of me wake up and rouse hope.

We have been socialised that the new year, means renewal. Often you open your social media and see people posting, 'New year, new me'. If only it were that easy. As I highlighted at the beginning of the year, I chose to repurpose my resolutions. As the year has come to an end, I did not achieve anything on my resolution list. But my life did change.

Most of the changes were truly the hand and power of the universe. The only thing that I  had a hand in was my love life. I chose to allow Sagittarius into my space. I chose to care about someone outside myself. I also chose to leave the table when I was no longer receiving a happy meal. Yet it was a year of lessons.

On a drive home with my boss, I shared my life story. I told her about how I had a vision board in 2010. In 2012, I wrote that I would work at the very company that she hired me at. I only got the job in 2018. And then things change again, not by the power of my hand.

I made new friends, female friends. I opened my heart to women, something I previously chose not to do. My support system has always been men - brothers, uncles and even male acquaintances.




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