Sometimes the unexpected happens with just a touch!
I never get enough of season three of ‘2 Broke Girls’ mostly
because the plot line seems to focus more on my favourite character ‘Max’. I
believe that Max has the most if not, the best punch lines out of the whole
cast although my younger sister thinks that Earl is the funniest, oh well!
With acknowledgement and at most over emphasis on my being
single, I know you guys are sick of it but this is my point of view and that’s
why you read it (sic!). For the past two years I have been drowned in my work
with the clear obsession to first make a lot of money so that I can improve the
products and services that my team and I have worked so hard to build. Secondly
I just want to change my life, I want tangible evidence of self-improvement
because I am almost 30 and there’s so much I need to catch up with especially
education wise. I really want to go back to school and travel more because
there’s a whole world to be explored and with my child I need to show her that
world.
Yes, I am a workaholic for the right reasons however I have also deprived
myself of a social life and it’s pretty evident so you can imagine how excited
I was to attend a certain festival this year.
I decided to use the work experience to ‘come alive’ and
just let loose because the aura around the year and the country has been a very
obscure and bleak one. I met a lot of people who I usually just like their
posts and statuses on social media or read their chats on Whatsapp groups and
it was pretty refreshing. Overall I did enjoy the experience, the music, the
vibes, the laughs and reconnecting but that’s not the little stain on my linen.
(Sipping something)
So back to ‘2 Broke Girls’, I was watching the episode when
Max is now at pastry school and she’s partners with Dick and the pair enjoy a
good ‘bromance’ where they sexualize pretty much everything that they learn
including Chef Nicolas’ words. To be honest I absolutely admired Max and Dick’s
friendship, although I personally have male friends whom I have a ‘bro’
relationship with (oh yes, I can be such a guy, I forget that I ovulate); but
those two are ‘AWESOME’! So, while Caroline questioned the relationship between
Dick and Max, Max was very satisfied that they were ‘bros’ talking about ‘Judy
with the booty” (and the girl really has a grosse
derrière). This ‘bromance’ is all fun until Max felt something while Dick
was wetting her bread. She then gets confused and tells Caroline of which
Caroline advises Max to confront Dick and tell him how she feels. Whilst
studying, Max fails to express her feelings but at the end of the episode Dick
makes the move highlighting that he actually likes Max, which happens to be a
mutual feeling.
The whole time that I was watching the episode I was like,
Max girl, I know your predicament! I have been there maybe once or twice,
actually more recently. My healing process is still in progress, so I tend to
‘fear’ liking someone. My friends always say that this is the 21st
century and this isn’t high school, so I should be assertive enough to approach
someone that I like and tell them that I am feelin’ them. You should see my
facial expression as I type this, I get ‘mortified’. What in the hell? Who?
Have you met me? Oh yes, I am confident, often opinionated and not afraid to
speak my mind, but the PTSD of previous rejection won’t let me, I would rather
bury my head in the sand. Besides it’s often complicated to confront feelings
for a friend, although your ‘bro’ or friend is the best candidate for a mate
because they know you-all of you, when you ugly cry, when you snore, when you
say stupid things, or when you achieve your goals etc.
So, the tea! I too like Max, felt a spark but it wasn’t in
pastry school. There’s someone that I know and I have often teased that they
are marriage material and we should just get married. Unlike Dick and Max, we
are not ‘bros’ but we are amicable. Then this one day, this person just came
out of nowhere, had their arms around me whilst holding my keypads as I played
PS, lawd, I felt something. For almost a minute I was in a daze, what in the
hell just happened? I then looked at them and I was confused. Yes, nice person,
smart, building something for their future but, am I really attracted to this
person? At least for all of you who were worried that I was still stuck on
stupid, there is hope for me. I can actually ‘feel’, my heart’s not in an
icebox and mentally I can realise qualities of a decent human being and
somewhat ‘appreciate’ them.
No pun intended but my bread was wet but unlike Max, I
choose not to overthink things and do not feel the need to confront ‘feelings’.
I like that on my part, my healing is progressing, and I am in a certain space,
a good one to add on. I do though, need to go out more to different places and
meet more people, hold conversations, have more fun and who knows, pastry
school might be closer than I think.
Sadly at end of season three, Max breaks up with Dick
because Dick couldn’t live without his parents’ money and she didn’t want him
to sacrifice his livelihood for her. Poor Max! At least she experienced
something good in her life (even if it was short-lived), since she’s been
plagued by the fear of not having or experiencing something good in her life.
Side note: I am watching ‘2 Broke Girls’ season five but I
missed out on season four, anybody want to hook me up?
P.S.: Always write your own love story!
Ciao!
Lady E
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